This year Christmas Is not the same, just a yearly memory. The house is not a home anymore because you are not here with me. There will be sadness; there will be tears when we wake up on Christmas Day. For this will be our first without you. As we sit around the Christmas tree, emotions will be sad. Gifts for them, gifts for me, but none of them say dad. All I want for Christmas is to see your smiling face. I know it cannot happen as your in a better place. Christmas 2018